I don't want to do anything with my life. What it does mean is that when you try to be something you are not you bring misery upon yourself and those around you. — Over It After 40 Years . But that can’t always, or maybe ever, mean penetration anymore if you don’t want it to. Like "I don't want to do this anymore." 4) I am always insecure at my job and I dont feel confident , I feel the project will fail al the time. It's terrible! 5) I live alone and I have never had relationship in my life and for some reason I dont feel like having a relationship , I dont have any friends either. Whether it’s a toxic relationship or an overall mental exhaustion, the momentum of your life gets quickly tossed out. I know you can’t change anyone in this life and shouldn’t even try, either they love you or they don’t. I don't love him anymore, but can't leave. You wonder why it’s so hard for you to socialize, to be productive, to live a normal life. Seeing you reply to a comment 5 years later made me feel a weird feeling that felt good. The more time you spend alone, the harder it is to conjure up the energy to insert yourself back into the world. Have you experienced tender, swollen bumps, either on or under your skin, that may produce foul-smelling liquid and scarring? The world is beautiful. It took me awhile to actually get used to going places again. I know I need to see a doctor and go back on my pills like before but I can't leave the house. And if they don’t nothing you do can change that. You lie naked with him while he gets himself off. I go to work, come home, put on Jammie's and go to bed to watch tv. I feel so badly for you. My family always tells me to get out the house and make friends and enjoy life outside my house but the truth is I love my room my bed my dog myself and life inside! Anyway this has it triggered me that walking and hiking always helps me. I got into running. She's paying me $100 dollars a week to do so. Hope to hear you are doing much better. I don’t sit in my house and mope around. I don't love him anymore, but can't leave. I don’t wish the world would stop celebrating Christmas. My daughter and grandchildren go to my sons home a lot and now they have my grandchildren disrespecting me, how do I handle this. Just leave me alone! Learn more about Thought Catalog and our writers on our about page. Sometimes we can observe and be a part of a group that way. I want to pull out of my house sale. I get panic attacks when I go out, but never at home. There's always a million complications in the way when we do. I respect the choice they have made for themselves. I'm desperate ! It’s high time he learns how. My mom and I started traveling together, saving up our money and going to Rolling Stones concerts around the world whenever we could get the chance. As a homeowner, you may have decided that it is time for a dignified end to your role as a homeowner. Maybe we lacked a coach who could prod us into leaving the nest and support us when we gathered the courage to try. I dont want to leave the house anymore. I'd appreciate reading about your experiences. I like going to places like Dechoes and Platos closet, there are so many interesting things there you wont be thinking about people looking at you, you'll be thinking about how interesting and non-expensive this awesome stuff is. I feel terrible but I don't want to be around her anymore. You can’t keep hiding away and expecting your mood to magically change. As long as I stay in "my little world" I am fine. i love him as my baby daddy but nolonger want to be with him. When I left he got clean, started going to meetings and worked hard to win me back. All of the feast days in the bible are free and I am on a long term strike. 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